When the Tears Come…


I hit one of my lows yesterday. It was one of those that just hits you and you contemplate death. You’re not really going to do it, but the thought is there. It is like a mountain of pain that you feel, and all you want to do is make it stop. I cried so much yesterday. I cried for my life, I cried for my loneliness, I cried for the world, I cried for everything that represented “me.” This has something to do with GameChanger, but it wasn’t all about him.

Do you know what it’s like to be truly alone? The emptiness consumes you to a point where you feel like just collapsing. I definitely collapsed under all the tears. I cried so much I ended up in a deep sleep. Sometimes it’s all you really need.

Depression crushes your soul, and it literally comes out of nowhere. How do you cope with such a thing? There are no pills, no relief that you can get other than facing is and letting it all out.  It will consume you so you can’t function, this is true. How do you finally get out of bed and face the world?

You get up. You can do it. I did it. You can too.

Stay tuned.

About shatteredwishes

I am in my late-thirties just trying to figure out life in a big city. "When in life you are handed lemons, make a vodka martini." "When I am happy I enjoy the music, but when I am sad I understand the lyrics."
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