Writer’s Block

writer's block

So my venture into the “resume writing” world came to a screeching halt as I tried to take on my first assignment. I should refocus on the dating world, as I lick my wounds and accept that the fact that I am stuck with my current stressful job. What was I going to say to them anyway? They rely heavily on me, and I have gained a lot of knowledge from the girl before me, making me a valuable asset to the company. If I up and quit now, I would be leaving them high and dry, much as I did 5 years ago, when the bipolar mess of myself called in and said “I quit” to a very disappointed boss.

I suppose this is the right route for me. As much as I would like to write and put my skills to good use, putting together someone’s resume from scratch with a just a handful of notes is a lot tougher than you think. It requires lots of understanding and effort, and you really have to get inside your client’s head. Do I have that much time and effort to devote to someone’s project for a measly $20? I don’t think so.

So what do I do with my Writer’s Block? Roleplaying seems to be the only viable option right now. I would love to create and write a story with someone else. Although, I may need to find a PG writer, that will just stick to romance. Sex seems to be the driving force for most male roleplayers, and as much as I hate to admit it, “His cock slams her forcefully against the wall,” is what most men are after when engaging in a roleplay. It’s always down to sex, that’s the ultimate goal, and for writers like me who just want to engage and create, it becomes discouraging.

How’s the dating life? At this point it is mainly non-existent. I do have some boys hanging out in my phone, but I don’t really want to engage with any of them. I need someone captivating and new, someone who I can bear my all to, enjoy his company and eventually become intimate with.

As for my new employment venture though, I think I am just going to stick with my current job and ride it out. As much as I would love to write a resume for someone, getting so invested in someone’s story is worth a hell of a lot more than what they are offering for pay. Maybe I could have done it for $40 a resume, who knows? And with my current job I am forced outside of my house, I have to stick to a sleeping schedule, and I have to take better care of myself. All good things though. And plus, resume writing means that I will find myself procrasinating a lot. With my bipolar mind, I have mastered procrastination, to the point where going to work every day and forcing myself to “get with the program” three days a week is healthier for me. I know if I pursued being a Resume Writer, I would find myself sitting at home with a mountain of work, not being able to function and do shit. So yeah, this is the right course of action for me.

Anyway, I guess instead of spending my Saturday working, I am going to just look for boys (men, playthings), to satisfy my lusts and my time. As much of a sex kitten that I am, I don’t think I want a writing partner to just focus on sex. I want to be romanced and chased. I love the game of wits that men and women play to see whose panties (boxers) will drop first. Maybe on paper I want a PG man, but in real life? I need some satisfaction.

Let’s see where it goes from here shall we?

Stay tuned.

About shatteredwishes

I am in my late-thirties just trying to figure out life in a big city. "When in life you are handed lemons, make a vodka martini." "When I am happy I enjoy the music, but when I am sad I understand the lyrics."
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